Right now I am in the weird state of limbo. I feel like I am stuck in hell to be honest. It's like being on a vacation and you have hit that point of needing to go home. That's where I am at right now. Thing is, I can't leave until December. Or until I find another job. I receive a good bonus if I stay until my completion date. Most people where I work feel that it is not a good amount. To them I say, wanna buy me dinner, cuz I could effin use 12 weeks extra pay! Assholes!
So now here I am, beyond ready to leave. I am done. I want this roller coaster ride to end, and all I see is 6 months of tracks in front of me. I feel like I can't start anything new, because there is also a small chance things could change tomorrow and I will be out asap. My life has been put on hold and I'm not feelin good about it.
okay. listen to me. i know it sucks, feeling like you are stuck, but you are in a really good position right now. think of it this way: you only have 6 more months- that's it. you MUST think of it in a different way, like oh my god! i have six month to right now to write half my novel or train for a half marathon and then instead of working spend all of your time at work focusing on that thing. you could solve world peace that way. focus momma, focus.
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