Restart

My good friend Nicki gave me a much needed kick in the pants to help shake my bad mood and hatred of Nor Cal. She reminded me that I need to focus on me. Making myself happy. Stop focusing on how much longer I have in hell and rather what I can be doing during that time. I started this new outlook of life by getting a haircut. I have long bangs now and my hair is super light. I love it! I'll post pics soon. I am hardcore on my diet and exercise right now. I have stopped bending over backwards for "friends". As my other good friend Sara tends to tell me, I get taken advantage of a lot by others. I am fortunate to be well connected and successful in my career and I tend to have others try to take advantage of these benefits that I have earned. No More of that. Don't get me wrong, I do love to help others and do it as often as I can. However, there needs to be a line between favors and mooching. I plan on starting up Yoga at the gym on Saturdays. I have a weekly outing with the girls at work on Thursday nights at our local Italian restaurant. I will focus on what makes me happy.

Hold Please

Right now I am in the weird state of limbo. I feel like I am stuck in hell to be honest. It's like being on a vacation and you have hit that point of needing to go home. That's where I am at right now. Thing is, I can't leave until December. Or until I find another job. I receive a good bonus if I stay until my completion date. Most people where I work feel that it is not a good amount. To them I say, wanna buy me dinner, cuz I could effin use 12 weeks extra pay! Assholes!

So now here I am, beyond ready to leave. I am done. I want this roller coaster ride to end, and all I see is 6 months of tracks in front of me. I feel like I can't start anything new, because there is also a small chance things could change tomorrow and I will be out asap. My life has been put on hold and I'm not feelin good about it.

10 Things I hate about Nor Cal

1. The slow ass mutha effin drivers. If the speed limit is 65mph, it doesn't mean you can go anything underneath that!

2. Marin Folk. God Awful.

3. Bridge Tolls. Cuz gas prices aren't enough, I have to pay $5-6 dollars to take the ONLY way into the city other than a boat.

4. Corn Man. I have a guy who comes into my complex every day honking a loud horn and selling corn out of a shopping cart. There is a big tub o mayo to dip it in too.

5. Hippies.

6. Smugness. I'm all about saving the earth, but it doesn't make you cooler if you do and brag about it.

7. Priuses and Subarus.

8. Lack of REAL beaches

9. Nightlife. I have been here over 4 years now and I have yet to find a place that I always like to go to. Like a default bar when you just need a drink. Nothing. Dive bars here are scary as fuck and other "lounges" have $15-20 drinks.

10. It's not So Cal

Online Dating

Can I just go on the record by saying I HATE online dating. I always have second thoughts and think, "Ok, let's try this again". It just so awkward!! First off I never know what to write in the about me sections. How do you write about yourself without sounding like a complete tool or like you are trying too hard? Then you need to put pics up on your profile. Of course you don't want to put pics that make you look fat or are unflattering. Yet once you actually meet the person face to face, you realize that those pics they had up were from 5 years and -20 lbs ago. Once your profile is complete, you start your search. I always seem to try the sites for free before commiting to my bank account. Although all you can do is look at their profiles and wink at people. I think winking is a little creepy in person, so why would I want to do it virtually. I did actually go on two dates from an online site. The first guy was super quiet and boring. He did have a nice idea for a date. He took me to the botanical garden in the golden gate park. However, he didn't check ahead of time to see if it would actually be open, which of course it wasn't. So we ended up having a drink at a pub by the panhandle. He spent the whole time watching baseball on the tv and I got tired of thinking of things to ask him. The second guy I went out with was good looking and seemed a little more outgoing at first. That started out a bit better. Then he found out what I did for a living and he insisted that I pay for our dinner since he assumed I made more money than he did. Umm..ok, great. BYE! I should have kept trying, but those two dates really turned me off to online dating. Every other guy I started to talk to online would just want to hook up. Online dating does not feel natural and is so not my style. Why is it so hard to meet people now a days? Le Sigh...

Sometimes, we break down...

I have been in the worst mood possible over the past 2 days. I know it's just lovely PMS, but for the love of god, I can not shake it. I was literally at the point of either crying or killing someone. Question is, what does one do to get out of these moods. I'll tell you what I wanted to do. I wanted to eat bad food. Cookies, chips, ice cream, carbs. Did I? No. I wanted to drink a whole bottle of wine. Did I? No. I refused to let myself do bad things I would regret, even though that's ALL I wanted to do. It's probably the hardest thing I ever did, lol. So besides comfort food, I didn't know what else to do to get out of that mood. Hmm, no wonder I got as big as I did. Next time I almost have a break down, I need to take out my aggression in the gym. Or better yet, just go to bed and sleep the bad mood away.

Back on Track

It's about time to get back on track with this diet and exercise. I was doing really well before Vegas, and then things went down hill from there. Today I bought a bunch of veggies and healthy shit at the Farmer's Market. I also forced myself to go to the gym, which was really hard to do. I'm glad I did though. It only takes one visit to get back into the swing. My goal is to lose at least 10 more pounds by the end of July. I'm striving for more, but 10 will be the minimum. Tonight's grilled chicken and calliflower mash filled me up with healthy goodness. Thank you George Foreman...thank you.

Arkansas

I made it back in one piece from Arkansas. It was a fun filled weekend of love, booze, and food. There were about 20 of us that flew in on the same flight from LA. It took a school bus and a van to get us all into Eureka Springs. The second we got to the cabin, we started doing shots of moonshine. The bridal cabin had about 12 people staying in it. It was basically The Real world Arkansas. We even at one point managed to get 15 people into a 4 person hot tub.


This stuff was the end of me!

Day One was spent at Beaver Lake. They rented some pontoon boats and jet-skis. Niqui's dad cooked a Shrimp boil with red potatos and corn on the cob. As well as crawfish ettouffe which was super yummy! Plus shrimp is my #1 food, so I was in heaven.






Day Two was the big day. The ceremony was beautiful and the reception was a lot of fun. The wedding planner was god awful. She knew less of what was going on than I did. Even people who weren't in the bridal party were irritated with her and her attitude. Overall though, it went well and was a great time. I was super nervous to do my speech, but it went over well with the crowd and got some laughs. We danced our asses off and one friend even busted his chin open while attempting to do the worm. After the wedding we went back to the cabin for an after party. That's when things got a little crazy. Niqui's brother was dared to run around butt ass naked, which he did, and then we ended up branding his chest with a hot iron. It was as serial as you would imagine.





Day Three was spent hanging around Eureka Springs. It's a funky little town. The humidity and heat was a bit too much for me all weekend. My hair and hangovers did not agree with it either.

Overall, I had an awesome time and I'm so happy to see my best friends as Husband and Wife!

Current Obcession

You know those songs that you love the second you hear them? Well this song was exactly that for me. I don't know why, but I absolutely love it. Enjoy

The time has come...

...for my best friends to get married! The long awaited wedding has arrived and I am so excited to see them become husband and wife. It's not often when you are so close to both members of the wedding.



I have my dress, shoes, and speech ready to go. It was hard to write a speech without getting emotional. I'm not the best at delivering speeches but I'm hoping it goes over well. I have definitely gotten a lot better at public speaking than when I was a teenager. God I used to loathe given oral reports. It was the end of me. Now I just kind of suck it up and feed off the adrenaline.

I will have a full report and fun pics once I return. For now, Arkansas watch out, Rosie is comin!

Below is my new fav pic of Niqui. Totally shows her personality!

Fun Events

This last weekend kicked off a month of crazy events. I just spent 3 fun filled days in Las Vegas with the girls for my BFF Niqui's Bachelorette Party. Everyone seemed to have a great time! We went to Men the Show at Sapphire's Strip Club. Having gone to the "Thunder from Down Under" before, I had a feeling this show would be similar. This however, was a step above. The guys actually walk around the floor before hand and during the show like a normal strip club. Always nice to have built, hot men rubbing your shoulders and telling you that you are beautiful. Even if they get paid to do it. I made sure all my ladies had a lap dance and we had them take Niqui up on stage...a few times! It was well worth the money. We also took a pole dancing class, which is much harder than it looks! I have found appreciation for the pole dancers in the world. No easy task.


The Girls and I in Vegas...pre-strippers and pole dancing

Next weekend I am headed to Beerfest for my cousin's 26th birthday. Then I'm off to Arkansas for 4 days for the long waited wedding! Fun times ahead!