Where my straight boys at?

You know what I really miss? Hanging out with straight boys. I think that is something that has really gotten to me up here. All I do is hang out with women and gay men up here in Nor Cal. Not that I don't love them dearly, but there is something that comes with hanging with "the guys". That's all I did when i lived in the OC and I freaken loved it. Sunday Fundays, no drama, inappropriate behavior, and higher tolerance of alcohol. In general, I'm not a huge fan of girlie cliques. There is too much cattiness and stupid drama. Just watch an episode of the Hills and you will know what I'm talking about.



I miss having a crew. I miss hanging out on people's patios by the beach and drinking beers. I miss my old social life.

Random pictures that make me smile

Bay Area Bucket List

With only a 6 months left living in the Bay Area, I decided to make a Bay Area Bucket List. Here goes:

1. Visit Santa Cruz Boardwalk
2. Wine tasting in Napa (I still can't believe I have only made it to Sonoma)
3. California Academy of Sciences at Night
4. Go to a Drag Show
5. Film Night in the Park (http://www.filmnight.org/fnp2010.htm)
6. See a movie at the Castro Theater
7. See at show at the Filmore (still haven't gone)
8. Walt Disney Family Museum
9. Have Lunch at Fish in Sausalito
10. Have a Molonari's Sub and Pastry from La Boulange

Sell crazy someplace else, we're all stocked up here.

My patience has really been tested lately by having to deal with these people I like to call, "The Crazies!". I realize that losing your job and having to find work can bring out the worse in people, but seriously I have experienced mental insanity from some of these folks. One woman in particular even forgot to bathe for a week and wore the same outfit every day. She also called and emailed me about 15 times a day, asking more and more questions. Most of which had no relevance...to anything! I am a recruiter not a therapist. Save your problems for someone who cares or gets paid to listen.

I need a hobby

There is nothing worse than extreme boredom at work. You don't want to look like you don't have anything to do, but in reality, you don't! You can only browse Facebook, People of Walmart, and Sexy People.com so much. I am looking for new and exciting things to occupy my time because I have a long road ahead of me until my end date. I have been thinking of doing an online class. I would like to get my PHR, although I hear it is extremely hard to get. Not like that is going to stop me! Surprisingly, I am smarter than I look, I can do it. My problem is lack of motivation. I am so not motivated to come to work every day to the same old depressing, boring shit. I need inspiration. Something to keep my brain moving. Suggestions?

It's not a diet...it's a lifestyle change

One major thing I have done to jump start this "new way" of life, is change my eating habits. I started it a few months ago and I have been doing pretty well. I do have my occasional days where I cheat, but overall it has been a complete makeover in the way I eat. I basically cut out all sugar, bad fats, and bad carbs. I try to buy only organic, when I can afford it. eat lots of veggies and I have cut back on the alcohol. Once you get into the groove of eating like this, it's like your body rejects any bad foods you eat. I find it the hardest to stay on top of this when I am eating out with friends, going to parties, or the worst..traveling. Any one who can stick completely to their diet while traveling is insane, because it is so hard to do. It's not like I can pack food and bring it on the plane with me. They barely let me bring toothpaste on the plane! Then when you do find something healthy at the airport, it has usually been sitting in that fridge since the last time you traveled and will cost you about $15.



I will say though, I have became an addict of Whole Foods. They have this flat bread and sauces that I used to buy at the farmer's market that is incredible. The Spinach bolani with garlic mint cheese sauce is freaken wonderful. Highly Recommend!

Ok back to eating my yogurt and granola....

Shoes...OMG Shoes

I have a hard time wearing shoes. I am a true blood So Cal girl and I love my sandals. Rainbows in particular. I recently visited the factory down in San Clemente with my mom and picked up a new pair for myself. They are seriously the most comfortable things in the world. Forget those stupid ugly crocs, it's all about Rainbows.


Seeing as it never really gets below 40-50 degrees in LA, I never really worried about getting shoes for the weather. Then I moved to Nor Cal. For some reason, people tend to look down on you for wearing flip flops up here. Not all people, but most. In my quest to fit in to my new surroundings, I needed to find new shoes. After being used to wearing sandals all the time, my feet became blistered and scrunched in any kind of shoes I wore. I hated it. Why most it be so cold up here?? I have the same problem when it comes to jackets. I don't own an every day jacket. I just don't. There is no need for one in SoCal and as a bigger girl, I hate how they fit on me. God forbid I wanted to hug someone, my arms get stuck in these sleeves like I'm Randy from A Christmas Story. Since I am moving back to LA at the end of the year, I still refuse to buy one. It's my thing...live with it.

Let's get Physical

It doesn't matter how healthy I eat, I know that if I don't exercise, I won't lose weight. I was doing pretty well with the regular visits to the gym, but then life got i the way, as it tends to do. I did however, run my very first 5K! This was a HUGE milestone for me! For anyone who has known me since a child, I do not run. I HATE running. I would literally rather stick a fork in my thigh than run. Never the less, when my friend Sara approached me about the Marin Marathon 5K, something in me knew that I had to prove to myself that I could do this. My goal was to not be the last person in the race and to make it under a 45 minutes. I was pleasantly surprised that I achieved both goals! There were about 4 people behind me and I made it in 40 minutes. For having to power walk most of it and not actually ran since high school, I think I did pretty well. The best part is running through the finish line and having them call your name. Now I am still walking 5Ks back and forth to the gym. I'll eventually build up to a 10K and higher. Who knew I would ever get into marathons? Just call me Forest.

Breakfast of Champions...I'm ready, let's do this


Shoe Shot, all tagged up


98% ready, 237% Not fucking around


We did it!! I earned my medal...now let's go home

Tanning

In light of my last downer blog, I figured I should write something a little more upbeat. With summer approaching and lack of expose to any daylight during the day, I decided to get a tanning membership. I know, I know, spare me the commentary...I know about the UV radiation, skin cancer, blah blah blah. I know I'm going to get the same damage, if not worse, lying in the sun so why not do it the faster way.

I used to go all the time in high school and I was practically black I was so tan. However, tanning can go horribly wrong. I would not recommend the spray tan. It makes you orange and your hand looks like you have been digging dirt all day. I had a bad experience when I decided to spray tan for the Grammy's....looked like a freaken oompa loompa.



So far it's going alright, I'm slowly building my tan. The guy who owns the salon is always there and he is quite possibly one of the loneliest bastards I've ever met in my life. I can't ever walk out the door without him trying to start a new conversation about something. He is a bigger man who speaks in baby talk half the time. Really freaks me out a little but at least they have good prices.

Let's just get this one out of the way

It's one of those things you think will never happen to you. You see movies where people don't talk to their parents and then there is some kind of epic event that brings them back together. It's not so much the case for me, at least not yet. It has been 5 years and 9 months since I last spoke to or have seen my father. I will spare the sob story of why we don't speak, just know that it was my decision to stop communication and till this day, I do not regret that decision. Every once in awhile I feel bad for him and think that things could have possibly changed. Maybe I should give him a call? Maybe I was wrong? And then...something insane happens that gives me a quick reminder of why I did what I did.

This most recent stint really pushed me over the edge. To the point of never being able to forgive him. My first step mom came across a blog that one of his girlfriends had written about him. She was 20 when she met him, and he(Mark aka Sparky) was 36. They met right after my parents got divorced on the set of NYPD Blue. This girl quickly became obsessed with my father and years later decided to write this blog (http://melissa-singlegalinthecity.blogspot.com/search?q=sparky) about their relationship. As much as no one would want to read about their parents sexual affairs, it didn't strike me as bad until she started using my name in the blogs. There was one entry in particular that explained how he would lie to me that he was working and be with her instead. Then the blog dates started getting into the years when he was married to my first step mom. Reading these entries made me sick. I eventually wrote him a letter telling him about the blog and how disgusted I was to read this. Instead of reacting like any normal human being would, he got angry and had HER write me a letter. Then commented on her blog and said that he is "..sorry for actions made by his family and that he wished we had half the class she did." I honestly have never been so mad at him in my life. Why he felt that having her write me would make it better, I don't know. I don't need to be lectured but some crazy bitch who is only a few years older than me on how to be a good daughter.



Ok...now that THAT is out of the way, I feel like a weight has been lifted. It was like hitting rock bottom in our relationship. Absolutely nothing will change what he has done to me over the years and this was the cherry on top. I still have people in my life that think my decision was wrong and try to convince me that I need to speak to him. I know what is right for me and they don't. So all opinions aside, I know this was the right decision. It took me 5 years and 9 months to comes to terms with it...but dammit I did! I won't ever forget the fun memories I did share with him as a child and that is how I choose to remember him by.

P.S. Don't worry...funnier blogs to come! Hence the title, had to get this one out of the way!

Light at the end of the tunnel

As most of you know, I have been going through hell at work after the notice of our studio closure. Not a week goes by without having at least one person either break down in tears, get angry that I am not being their personal agent, or complain about Disney and how we have screwed them over. It's been fun times.

I recently had a job offer to be a Recruiting Manager for a company in Vancouver. At first, I was all about it! It seemed so exciting and I was shocked that they wanted ME to be the manager! It was so refreshing to hear after always being told I was too junior for other jobs. Then after they flew me up and I spent the night in Vancouver, reality sunk in and I realized that I would be far away from my family and good friends. And my biggest issue of being lonely in Nor Cal would only be worse in Vancouver. There were a few other reasons that led to my decision, but I ended up declining the offer. I decided that I would stay until the end at my current job, get paid through the end of the year(with benefits), and take home my large retention bonus. The thought of actually being able to survive on unemployment and live at home with my mom while I worked on my personal life seemed more appealing than going straight into another stressful job and living in an area I was unfamiliar with.

To kick off my days of unemployment and the holiday season, I have decided to book myself on a cruise! My aunt and good friend Lauren work at Princess Cruises and I receive fantastic friends/family rates. About 50% off the normal cost! I tried to think of who to ask to come with and of course my dear friend Nicki was the first to come to mind. Most of my friends and family will be working during this time and will have to travel home for the holidays. Nicki has been trying to go on a cruise for quite so time now and I knew she had to go with! We will be going on a 7 day Mexican Riviera Cruise stopping in the cities of Cabo San Lucas, Puerto Vallarta, and Mazatlan. Just looking at these pictures makes me wish it was December already. Just 7 more months and I'll be saying Bon Voyage!

New Blog

Somewhere along the years, I managed to get myself into an unhealthy, stressed out, lonely state. Focusing way too much on work and parting, and not enough on myself and my mental health. Luckily, I am only 26. So it's not like I've turned 60 and realized, "Oh shit, WTF have I done to myself!".

This new blog is dedicated to my effort to change my ways. One step at a time. It won't be easy, but I figure that if I put this all in writing, I will be accountable for my actions. Words of encouragement are appreciated, as well as occasionally keeping me in check by saying, " Rosie, you are f-ing crazy to think you can do that!".

My goal? To slowly inch my way back to sanity and over all happiness. It's not going to happen over night, so fasten your seat belts and get ready for a bumpy ride!